my 2009 in a nutshell

boring tahap gaban sampai buat entry kedua hari nih. mandangkan ni mungkin jadi entry terakhir aku utn thn 2009 nih, mai nak recap sket.

tahun 2008 aku punya resolutions were as follows:-

1. NORMAL BIRTH OF BABY
2. TO BRING UP BABY TO MY BEST ABILITY
3. TO BE THE BEST MOMMY THAT I CAN BE
4. TO BECOME A MORE DILIGENT EMPLOYEE
5. TO BECOME BETTER THAN WHO I AM TODAY
6. TO BUY NEW CAR AND NEW HOUSE


sudah achieved ka belom???

1. NORMAL BIRTH OF BABY

- berjaya!! walaupun 3rd degree stitch, tapi normal birth all the way (with the aid of some painkiller laa tapi....)

2. TO BRING UP BABY TO MY BEST ABILITY

- trying hard, day by day. imran is responding well to what i have been teaching him so i guess i'm heading towards the right direction. of course, teaching him is a lifelong continuous process.

3. TO BE THE BEST MOMMY THAT I CAN BE

- being a mommy is a surreal experience. no reality tv programme can ever capture what it feels like. educating myself to become a better parent to imran also means it's a lifelong continuous process. everyday is a new experience and i look forward to embracing each day with imran.

4. TO BECOME A MORE DILIGENT EMPLOYEE

- jawapan jujur atau tipu? hahahahha
- jujur: there's only 2 lawyers now in my company. the manager and myself. we are responsibled for all the legal matters involving the holdings company and its sub co. the rest have resigned due to personal reasons. from doing corporate commercial agreements to doing overseas venture consultancy contracts, to being involved in replacing of BHS system in the airport, to preparing board paper, to advising the Chairman on trademark issue, to doing things that i never imagined i'd do now after only 2 years in this company. but i'm adapting well.

5. TO BECOME BETTER THAN WHO I AM TODAY

- i have changed, in some ways or another. especially on the motherly side. more alert to babies' or toddlers' issues. become more sensitive when it comes to seeing babies suffering. become more alert what goes into imran's stomach (read: try to cook his meal everyday without much relying on commercially prepared baby food). and try to be a better wife as well. this year has been challenging after the arrival of the budak kecik. urusan rumah agak tunggang terbalik butttt....we are coping well.

6. TO BUY NEW CAR AND NEW HOUSE

- car --> checked
- house --> not yet. next year's resolution perhaps???


and what shall i remember most about 2009? a mixture of sweet and bitter memories.

february - gave birth to imran on 19 february 2009. very, very sweet indeed despite the labour pain and what not. what more i spent confinement period at taiping for 1 month++. mak took care of me like a princess. mak mandikan imran. mak sediakan air mandi aku. mak tidokan imran. mak masak utk aku. really, tak penah rasa pampered macam tu. also remembered looking out the window in the morning to see bapak tgh sidai baju newborn imran dekat ampaian and also tlg lipatkan those tiny sleeves to perfection and susun ikut jenis. thank you mak and bapak. how could i repay you?


may - bapak kena stroke. this was a total shock. bapak was fine the day before when we came home and he was so happy to see imran again after i went back to shah alam lepas pantang. and the next day booom!!! 2 may 2009 - will never ever forget what happen on that day. i can still recall every single minute of it. how we found bapak on the bed. how waiting for the ambulance seems like 100 years. how seeing bapak struggle to even swallow 2 drops of water seems like swallowing a gallon. how he went through almost a week without any solid food nor liquid. how painfully we took the news the stupid doctor told us. how heartbreaking it was to see him helpless. how different he was than the morning before he got it. it makes my heart crumpled everytime i tried to recall. but us siblings become stronger, closer than ever, hold onto each other every single day and become the backbone for mak. very, very tough period indeed. but bapak has pulled through all the obstacles albeit a slow process. and he's coming to shah alam tomorrow. his 1st ever long distance trip after thr stroke. am proud to be her daughter.


happy 2010 everyone. love your parents while they are still around. love your loved ones for u never know when death would come knocking on our/their door(s). be prepared to face the worst so that you will be better prepared. and never assume life is forever peaceful. God is Great. you can be driving one minute, and the next thing u know, you are already gone.

let's spread the love!

ho ho ho

semua keje utk tahun ni dah siap. kalo ada yg outstanding pun, thn depan punya citer. aku akan stat cuti isnin next week sampai thn depan. sejak pindah sepang, aku rasa letih sgt2 travel everyday. walaupun tak jauh mana but it's time consuming alright.

harap2 time cuti next week ni takde laa ofis tepon kat umah tanya pasal file. audit legal div next week so i hope all the files that i have completed will have no problems at all. harap2 la. aku rasa aku dah update mana yg perlu setakat yg sepatutnya. tatau kalo auditor tu buat sengal, ada lak buat surprise element mcm zaman aku hons dulu. heh. sapa yg tau pasal kisah suprise element ni, tau laa ek. malas nak citer panjang2. i hate surprises.

u know this issue bout azwan ali. bout his turning around. bout him forgiving all his musuh2. mula2 baca mcm skeptical. but think it positively. at least he's turning a new leaf. kebetulan baca pasal komen citer muallaf. how yasmin ahmad made it on the basis of forgiveness.

i do admit i have quarelled with whom i used to be friends with. sejak dari zaman skolah sampai laa recently. what do i feel after each fight? nothing. emptiness. longiness. mana yg aku betul2 menyampah tu mmg tak rasa pape la. pegi mampus lg bagus. tp yg gaduh out of the blue nih, haihh tah la. rasa mcm sia2 je berkawan bertahun2 lama kalo tau gini endingnya.

i just feel like forgiving everybody even if it's supposed to be on my expense. i know and god knows aku dah maafkan setiap yg penah buat jahat ngn aku (but i dont forget that easily), but to say it openly is a different thing.

and i know some of them are readers of my writings here. dunno what their motives might be but i never bothered anyway. but turning 28 next year made me thinking deeply.

sampai bila?

am i ready to forgive them? are THEY ready to forgive me? or should i make the 1st move like azwan did? or should i forgive them unconditionally each night before i sleep like what yasmin ahmad used to do when she was alive?

merry xmas and happy new year all.

p/s esok mak ngn bapak datang kl. sabtu ni nak bawak bapak gi accupuncture treatment at kepong. keyword here is "usaha". hope all went well.

mari melawat kuala terengganu

so the 3 of us went to k.terengganu last weekend which also coincides with awal muharram. sort of hijrah jugak laa for us, since this is imran's 1st trip to the state. antara negeri yg aku suka. it's got to do with the beaches and the islands la. so nice. so beautiful. selalu terasa dunia ni indah betul ciptaan-Nya. yet the beautiful things will turn into a complete disaster once musim tengkujuh is around. hehe.

muka bosan "are we there yet?"

6 hours journey and he slept half of the journey

budak kecik ni mmg kena standby mainan ngn makanan dlm keta. kalo dia stat bosan mmg huru hara jadinya dlm keta.

lamp post dlm bentuk sangkar burung. to protect the bulb kah? ornament kah? ntahhh.

ni kat batu burok. laut yang mengganas. ombak bergulung2 padahal aku bajet ni time air surut nih. bayangkan laa time air pasang caner bentuknya. angin kuat toksah citer, sampai besi signboard tepi jalan pun boleh terbuai2. hohhh. semangat nak mandi laut berkecai. nak basah kaki tepi gigi air pun aku tak berani.

muka cuak imran genggam kuat baju ayah dia. aku tatau apa yg dia takutkan. air ke? angin ke? ombak kuat ke?

oh takkk....rupanya pasir....hahaha....letak kaki kat pasir terus melalak sekuat2 alam. kahkahkah

kronik sgt sampai tunjukkan pasir pun nangis. teehee. haihh typical budak bandar ni. nak kena biasa2kan pijak bumi skit pas nih. aku siap bawak bumbo seater dia dgn harapan nak ajak main pasir. tapi kalo dah gini rupanya melalak tgk pasir, mission aborted. next time ok imran.

we stayed at grand continental, located in the heart of KT, near all the necessary amenities essential to shoppers and tourists kehkeh. breakfast was so-so. i was expecting authentic tganu dish mcm nasi dagang ikan tongkol ke. tgk2 ada nasik lemak. caitttt.

asril, far and baby umar came over to the hotel to visit us. punya laa syok borak sampai lupa amik gambo. hapo laa aku nih. mmg nak gi sana lg next year. tenkiu ye. walaupun offer ko nak blanja kitorg secret recipe tu sgt menarik, tapi takpe. there will always be next time.

yen di sebalik deretan kain batik ela dan para makcik2 yg mengganas tgk kain batik longgok murah2. kebetulan time kitorg gi sana, tganu is having batik sale througout the month. tak penah aku tgk pasar payang padat ngn manusia (yg semuanya org luar mcm kitorg) dan kain batik sutera dilonggok2 mcm kain murah. pastu aku pun sakit kepala. pastu yen pun dah berasap. pastu aku beli laa jugak selai batik sutera yg patung tu pakai sbb aku malas nak suh akak tu bukak selai2. yen pun beli selai kemeja batik. setel.

banner kedai paling jujur penah aku tgk instead of "jualan penghabisan stok".

kedai ni kan...one of a kind. kedai mat binjai ke hapa tah nama dia. dah laa aku tak reti nak order lauk mcm mana. main pakai pakej. pakej utk makan 2 org, 3 org and so forth. aku igtkan ape benda laa yg ada dlm pakej tu.

skali dia lambak semua lauk tu kat meja kitorg. hamik ko. terkulat2 kitorg tgk semua lauk tu "boleh abih ke semua ni?". end up ada laa 2-3 lauk yg tak abih. ikan bakar tu sekor imran bedal sorg dia. the whole thing cost about rm20++. kalo kat shah alam ni mau laa 30 lebih. abaikan aku yg tgh cium bau ulam tu. aku tatau tu daun apa, but it tastes nice. heh.

ni lg 1 benda pelik yg aku jumpa kat sana. maybank atm ada bahasa arab. hahahhaa.

i wonder berapa sgt laa org msia yg betul2 pilih bahasa arab to do their banking transactions kan. macam takde je. unless they are tourists. yet aku tak nampak langsung tourist arab kat sana. konsert dangdut ada ar. heh. konsert dangdut lepas awal muharram. so ironic.

ni amik pukul 11 malam. the town is almost dead. aman gila sehh. pagi sabtu sekalipun, jalan lengang je. dah nak dekat2 kul 12 baru laa ada byk skit keta. aku igt taiping tu dah abih slow paced. rupanya ada lagi bandar slower than it. impressed.

my boy turns 10 month old and we celebrated it in terengganu. muka hepi baru balik jalan2 kat town. another tooth coming out soon. he now understands simple instructions like "sayang mama/ayah" then dia akan jilat pipi org2 yg berkenaan. amik sikat and sikat rambut dia. wave goodbye bila ckp "babaiiii". tepuk tgn bila hepi or bila nyanyi lagu tepuk amai2. depa tgn suh dukung bila ckp "jom jom"-means nak pi jalan. nganga mulut bila ckp "mamam". only 10 month and he's achieved a lot. and only 10 months ago he was just a tiny little helpless baby boy who only knows how to sleep, feed and poop.

ok back to tganu trip. this is the view from our room. that's the batu burok beach yg menurut kata asril and far "takleh mandi". benda alah mcm bentuk cekak tu wave breaker. one method to prevent errosion kut. agaknya ar. aku bukan reti sgt benda2 ni.

pagi nak check out. imran tido nyenyak lepas makan vanilla muffin seketul and croissant with butter. very english breakfast laa konon.

otw singgah masjid terapung ni. apa tah nama dia. tiap kali pi, mesti nak berenti ambik gambar. at the same spot pulak tu. only this time it's with my own family. masjid kristal tak sempat pi sbb time constraint and asyik hujan je sepanjang kitorg kat sana. merasa laa tempias banjir gelombang ke-4 kat sana.

hujan2 pun sempat pi jugak tempat nih. 'sale up to 70%'. satu terengganu aku rasa gantung banner sale noor arfa nih. aku rasa ni mmg one stop centre utk batik lovers. and u can find batik in many forms-kain ela, sluar panjang, kemeja, t-shirt, sluar pendek, tudung, scarf, semua la!! price range of course higher than batik yang takde cap but u get the quality for the price u pay.

gemuk2 betul ikan dlm kolam tu. tah hapa diorg mkn tatau la. imran tgk pun jakun kejap.

the big complex building of noor arfa. nih idaman mak aku nih. byk kali dtg tganu tak penah mai sini. terpaksa laa aku MOB kat dia this time. takpe ada rezeki aku bawak mak bapak dtg cuti KT, i'll bring her to noor arfa. gerenti senyum meleret punya.

sesi dlm keta otw balik shah alam. ni time dah boring dok dlm keta tp takleh berenti sbb hujan lebat.

main cak2

"ok mama i'm bored already. i want to sleep"

will definitely go to tganu again. aku nak makan satar. aku nak gi beli tudung murah kat bus station. aku nak gi mandi laut. aku nak gi masjid kristal & taman tamadun islam. aku nak bersesak2 kat payang. semua laa aku nak.

sneak preview: projek jalan2 ke terengganu

alhamdulillah, selamat pergi ke tganu dan balik semula ke shah alam in one piece. takde masalah sepanjang journey pegi balik. cehhhh...bunyik macam pegi mekah je padahal.....

ok la. trip was nice. tak terlalu penat sbb aktiviti laut out of the list. gila ko, ombak bergulung2 ganas mcm hapa je. mmg commit suicide laa kalo sapa attempt nak gi mandi laut time2 nih (yet ada gak masuk berita yg mati lemas sbb mandi laut? how la?)

aku malas nak citer panjang2 sbb lupa bawak kamera nak upload gambo. citer takde gambo tak bes la kan. skang ni busy kat ofis sbb next week abang auditor nak mai audit fail. maka, haruslah diupdate file2 haku. kang ada lak yg nganga bila auditor tu tanya "ini mana dokumennya kak?". fyi next week dari xmas sampai new year gua on leave ye. saje malas nak dtg keje. hahahahhaah.

ok la ada rezeki esok aku buat entry pasal terengganu trip.

p/s balik ni nak rebus kopok losong ah....hoihh nikmatnya mkn panas2!

seminggu tak update kannnn

dah seminggu tak update. imran sakit mata sampai bengkak sepet sebelah. sgt ketara teruknya sbb mata dia dah sedia bulat. so heart breaking tgk dia tenyeh2 mata dia non stop sampai mengamuk2 esp time nak tido. last2 ngn aku skali berjangkit ngn dia. hehe.

preliminary stage sakit mata - mata kecik seblah tapi masa ni tak berair lg

time sepet terhebat - kesian kan? tak pakai baju sbb skang ni susah betul nak suh dia dok diam nak sarung baju. so make do with diapers 1st sbb kang dia kencing atas carpet.

sepet lagi bengkak yg tak merah tapi berair and byk taik mata bila bgn tido.

dlm proses nak baik. tu botol facial foam clean n clear aku. antara favourite 'toy' budak kenit ni. tatau apa yg dia suka sgt main ngn botol kecik tu. it can amuse him all day long.

mlm nak balik taiping last weekend. singgah kat dominos sec 9 buat bekal dlm keta. their meat mania pizza and bbq chickstix are heavenly delicious.

aksi seorang peminum susu yg kekenyangan. sampai tersandar kat bantal. burppp. he's addicted to his pacifier.

mickey mouse tu, aku punya dulu. balik taiping hari tu jumpa dlm almari. terus bawak balik. imran suka gigit hidung mickey tu.

on another note, being a govt servant's wife, aku dah foresee akan jd mcm mak aku dulu-slalu ikut skali bila bapak aku outstation. aku pun kecik2 dulu slalu gak menempel kalo bapak kursus jauh2.

so now it's my turn to experience all that. yen is going to terengganu this weekend. ada court case. flight ticket semua sold out. so, sesi mengangkut anak dan bini pegi t'ganu yeahhhhh. aku nak introduce imran kat air laut kat batu burok. asyik mandi swimming pool je selama nih.

asril, c u there this weekend. mau jumpa itu baby umar dan mak umar. hehe.

the day when the bosses recognized my temper

12.58pm



- was given instruction to attend meeting at a place about 10 minutes drive from my office

- have to be there before 2 because one dato' is attending it too plus other top management ppl (yeah yeah)



1.00 - 1.30pm



- makan lunch mcm org gile

- masuk, kunyah 3 kali, telan



1.40pm



- stat driving



1.45pm



- eh dah sampai, awal laa pulak

- lepak2 dulu



2.00pm



- the receptionist told me there was no meeting scheduled for today at that place

- tepon that particular department at my office, "weh ada meeting ke takde ni? sini ckp takde, sana ckp ada. mana satu ni??"

- "sori kak sori, en xyz on the way ke sana skang"



2.30pm



- "please tell en xyz if he ever comes, i came at 1.45 and left at 2.30. i got lots of work waiting to be done at the office. thanks"



3.00pm



- en xyz: actually the instruction was to submit the inputs by 2.00pm, bukannya you kena pegi sana pukul 2. so mcm mana dah siap?

- me: i nak siapkan mcm mana, i've wasted 30 minutes there waiting for u to come tapi tak dtg2 pun

- en xyz: sorry for the miscommunication



and there goes my mood for today. kesian kat sapa2 yg call aku lepas pukul 3pm sbb semuanya kena marah ngn aku.



btw, that en xyz, is a senior manager. kena marah ngn exec cabuk. you honour your instruction next time ok? walaupun gua exec je, janji pukul 2, kul 1.45 gua dah terpacak kat venue tu. lu pikiaq laa sendiri nooooooooo.

imran dan gigi susunya

i'm bacckkkkkkk...teeheee.....

saya suka menempel kat blog mama saya ni

saja nak citer

lately saya suka masuk jari dlm mulut mcm ni sbb gusi saya gatal

lately jugak saya dah pandai senyum kecik2kan mata mcm ni

saya rasa saya comel bila buat mcm tu

mak teh saya ckp saya buat senyum gatal hihihihi

hari tu mama buat bubur nasik kat saya

dlm bubur tu ada sweet potato + ayam

mula2 saya mkn laju

pastu agak2 dah kenyang saya main ngelat ngn mama

saya masuk tgn dlm feeding bowl pastu main ramas2 bubur tu

mama scoop 1 sudu bubur letak dlm piring

saya tepuk2 je bubur tu

pastu jilat kat tapak tgn

pastu amik piring jilat piring tu

lepas tu satu lantai penuh ngn bubur nasik

baju pun kena

las2 kena babab ngn mama

tapi saya tak nangis

saya buat dekk je

ayah terus sapu and lap ngn kain basah

game over

fyi saya skang tgh sakit mata

thanks to my babysitter

tu mata berkilat2 sbb mama baru sapu eye ointment

owh can u see my tooth???

there's a tiny white dot on my lower gum

my 1st tooth hikhikhik

see my swollen eye? i hate it!!!!

meh sini nak kenyit mata skit...nyetttt!!!

(gambar ni berjaya dicapture after almost 20 snaps of trying to take a photo of his tooth. usaha tangga kejayaan)